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My best friend called me yesterday to tell me that her brother and his family are going down to the Florida coast the second week of June and offered to get us a condo too with their weeks for their timeshare if she and I and another one of our girlfriends wanted to tag along.  Of course we had to get them an answer by noon today.  I’m off work today cause of some work being done on my house, so I emailed my boss last night.  I didn’t know if she would give it to me because that is near the end of the busiest time of year for me and I will have been traveling for work the three weeks prior to that.  But, she emailed me back and told me to take it!  Yipee!!

My girlfriends and I always talk about going on a vacation together and never really manage to make it happen.  But now we all have the time off, the condo reserved and paid for so it is really gonna happen!!  I am so excited!!  A vacation for me for the past four years has been going home to see my family, as much as I love them, not really a vacation.  I am excited to get a whole week to relax, tan, and sit on the beach.  Sounds wonderful doesn’t it?  I am actually going to do something for myself, I am so excited!!

Anyway . . . that is some new incentive.  I will see my family at the end of June and I wanted to lose weight for that as part of my family challenge, but now I want to for once in my life feel like I can look good on the beach.  I know I won’t have hit my final goal by then, that really isn’t feasible or probably a healthy goal, but I can make some serious progress.  My goal is to lose 50 more lbs by the time I go, which is almost exactly 5 months to the day.  That would put me at 160 and I think that goal is feasible, and I haven’t wieghed 160 since I think I was a freshman in high school so I know I will feel much better about myself at that weight and be able to totally enjoy my vacation.

Now time to get back to my workout for the day

Kind of nice that life is back to normal now after the holidays.  Once again people had to bring tons of cookies and pound cake and all sorts of things I don’t need to eat into the office today.  I work is a really small office so people tend to notice when I don’t partake of goodies,  so I really hope I am not offending anyone by not eating the stuff, but really, I don’t want it.

Anyway, I have tomorrow off cause I am getting some work done on my house so I have to be home, so with anyluck it is mostly gone by the end of day tomorrow and when I get there Wednesday things can be totally back to normal.

I got on the scale this morning and I am down another pound and a half which felt good, but I won’t officially weigh in until Thursday.  I hope to be down another pound and a half by then, that would be awesome!

I’m not so hyped up and excited about my diet changes and work out routine today, but I am feeling good.  It is starting to become more the norm and not so much the exception.  I really hope someday for it to feel totally natural to eat less and eat healthier and for excersize to be a part of my daily routine.  I am hoping that I am getting there.  My clothes are fitting better so that has to be a good sign that I am on my way.

You guys are a lot of help though in keeping me motivated . . . with the support of all my buddies here as well as my family I am really feeling like I can do it this time.  I am finally ready to make real changes to my life.  So . . . here’s to another good week and making progress towards being the person that I want to be.

So my company Christmas party is tonight and if I had my way I would not be going.  I know what kind of food and how much of it they will be having there and I am afraid of it.  But, with the position that I hold in the company my absence would be noted and the owner would not be happy so here I go.  I am planning to fit in an extra workout today to try to help me tonight, but still . . . it could be scary.

And the really bad part is that I didn’t work out yesterday.   It was one of those I can’t do this days so I over indulged and didn’t work out at all.  I woke up this morning knowing that I can’t skip two days back to back otherwise I risk getting totally off track.  But I have worked out so far this morning, got another workout to go and a lot of chores to do which should keep me active today.

So here’s to nothing . . . I had a high protien breakfast which should keep me full and out of the kitchen so that I can get things done.  So a good start for the day but it is still morning and I have a long way to go.  Good luck to me!!

Ok, so my first two weeks of my workout program I did really well.  Didn’t miss a work out at all!  Then this week . . . week three I am struggling to force myself to do it.  I found other things to do yesterday and didn’t get my workout in.  Granted I was getting some cleaning done and things done that needed to be done around the house, but not my workout.  I tried to make up for it today by doing one and a half workouts.  My body is a little too tired to get all of the way through both of them.  I need to find a way to keep myself motivated . . . I am losing inches, but not really pounds at this point so getting on the scale is not reassuring.  Most mornings I feel like I weigh more than I did the day before despite the workouts.  Actually it is probably because of the workouts cause they are building nice muscles that I can actually see.

But really, I do need to work on my eating habits.  I wrote up a menu for last week, but as most things in my life go, it go as I had planned so I didn’t do it this week.  But I should probably try again, or just start cataloging everything that I eat again, which is probably a better idea.

Ok, wish me luck!  Thanks for all of the motivation that you all give me!  I love reading other peoples blogs and seeing that I am not the only one struggling and that there is a way to get through it.

So when I woke up this morning and hit the snooze button about a billion times I thought that meant that I would have to try to talk myself into working out tonight, but I managed to drag myself out of bed at the last possible second and still fit the workout in this morning and not be late to work.  Granted I didn’t have time for make up and the hair is pulled back and up, but I did my workout.  So feeling pretty good.  All I gotta do is work out tomorrow morning and I hit my first full week of working out on my program.  I’m pretty excited!

So I am pretty proud of myself!  I actually got myself out of bed at 4:30 this morning and did my workout . . . and guess what . . . I felt great all day.  It was a great start to my day.  I just gotta keep it up!

Ok, so I’m not really new to this dieting thing.  I come up with new goals and strategies all the time, but every time I fail.  I have come to realize that it is all because of one thing . . . my total lack of will power!  You have heard the phrase “the spirit is willing, but the body is weak”, well I think that mine are both weak.

Regardless of that, I’m still willing to try.

So . . . here we go . . . again . . .

I’ve set up an exercise plan.  I’m working on a meal plan.  Now all I have to do is stick to it, right?

Here goes nothing . . . so wish me luck!