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So, I haven’t been on here as much lately cause something else has been taking up my time, i.e; a new boyfriend.  Now keep in mind I am not one to jump into relationships or let them move too fast, but this one is moving ahead like crazy and scaring the crap out of me, but he is a great guy so I am sticking with it.

Anyway, this guy has officially talked me into going home with him for Easter to meet his family.  Ok, maybe it is just me, but there is nothing more terrifying to me than having to meet a guy I am dating’s parents.  I don’t intimidate easily but this one intimidates me.

Well I have about a month before Easter and if I really work hard and push it I can hit my next mini-goal.  Which would be really nice cause as much as I will still have a long way left to go, I’ll be that much closer.  I don’t know, it is that self concious part of me that makes me think that his family would judge me based on my size even though he doesn’t.  Someday I may get over that, but for now it still just really scares me.  So I am just gonna work really hard this month and see how much progress I can make.

When I updated my weight tracker today I didn’t even realize that I had met my first mini-goal.  That was exciting!  Next came the challenge to figure out what I want my next mini-goal to be.  Before I was just looking to get good and out of the 200’s.  By the way ONEDERLAND is AWESOME!!  So, I finally decided that my next mini-goal will be 179lbs.  When I get to 179lbs, I will officially be overweight and no longer concidered obease.  I have always hated that word and hated it more because it was connected with me.  But at 179, my BMI will be 29.8 which gets me out of the obease range and makes me just overweight.  Of course my final goal will be to get in a healthy range, but one step at a time.