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Please, no one get offended.  If you get offended easily stop reading now.  I tend to be very opionated and very blunt, so I am sorry if this is insensitive.

 I know I haven’t blogged a lot lately, but I still read a lot of them.  I read a lot about dissapointments with ourselves because we don’t stick to our plans.  We binge, we don’t do our workouts, all sorts of stuff.  I know how this feels cause I have used those excuses myself so many times.  And every time I did my diet failed.  I have been fighting this extra weight my entire life and not winning the fight.

 This time is different.  It is different because my mindset has changed.  Amazingly enough this is way more of a mental fight than a physical one.  This time I told myself that there are NO excuses that are really valid.  “One last time” isn’t acceptable.  I know I am accountable to my buddies here and the group challenges I am in, but the person that I am really accountable to is ME.  If I fail, the only person I am really letting down is myself.  And damnit, I am tired of letting myself down.  So this time, I REFUSE to accept excuses from myself.

I have a plan, it involves daily calorie allowances and excercise requirements.  I know I have not been totally perfect, but I also know the days that I have failed,I did it deliberatly.  I let something else control me, and that is just crap. 

As individuals we don’t have a lot of control in this world.  We can’t control global issues, the ecomony, or even life itself.  Life is always gonna throw us curve balls.  The questions is do we let those curve balls control us or do we decide how we are gonna react to them?  I propose, WE DECIDE.  The only thing in life that we really have control over is our actions.  We can’t always control our emotions, but we CAN control our actions.

 So folks . . . my advice to you today is to CUT THE CRAP!!  Take control of yourselves and your actions and make yourself accountable to YOU and then just DO IT!!  Sounds easier than it is, but it is doable.  I know, cause I have done it.  January was a perfect month for me, I never missed a workout and every day stayed within my daily points allowance.  I am not a person who has ever had much self dicipline, which means that anyone can do it.  Including you.  So just do it already!!

It has been forever since I blogged (and by forever I mean over a week)!  Anyway . . . sorry guys, I missed a lot of your blogs, I will do as much catching up as I can.  I have really missed reading all of them.

I have been super busy with work and my workouts . . . I’m doing great!  Loving the gym, this is my 4th week of going six days a week.  Who would have thought that I could do that with my schedule.  Anyway, I love it and I feel great.

This past week I hit what I concider a milestone.  I have now officially lost over 20lbs.  I have never been able to do that before.  Sure 10-15 is easy, but getting past there was always impossible, and this time I have!!  That means that I can really do this . . . I can really keep going and hit my final goal!!  I need to lose 1.4lbs this week to hit my Valentines Day goal, I am really hoping that I can do it, but won’t be too discouaged if I don’t.  I know I am doing good.

Anyway, I promise to be better checking in with all of you.  Have a great Wednesday!!

Today didn’t start off so wonderful, but it ended up being a good day.  I brought healthy snacks with me to work becaue I knew that I would be at my downtown office for a while this morning and they always have junk food around.  And I did pretty well, but I ended up there longer than I had planned so by the time I was leaving I was starving and the only place to stop that was on my way was McDonalds.  No thanks!!  I did find a granola bar in my purse and filled up my water bottle and that got me through till I got home and could have a healthy lunch.  It was sury yummy when I finally got to eat.

Then it was back to work for the rest of the afternoon.  This afternoon one of my co-workers and I were talking (he happens to be the one the got me going to his gym) and he asked me how much weight I had lost.  Kinda surprised me that he finally got curious enough to ask.  Anyway, I told him.  Felt good that he had really noticed.  Anyway . . . got done with work and went to the gym.  I was a little tired so the workout was a little rough, but I got through it.  Well my co-worker and I were talking a little more at the gym and he told me that right after I left the office he and our boss were talking and she had mentioned to him that it looked like I was losing weight.  He told her that I had and that I was working out everyday, etc.  Anyway, he had to come tell me and cheer me on a little.

Anyway, after the end of last week when I was feeling a little down, and today when I was a little tired; that made me feel good and made me realize that even though I don’t feel like it right now, I am progressing.  So . . . we’ll keep going :)  I’m feeling good